The Pursuit of Perfection

Become More Self Sufficient

I’ve been a man-child for far too long. By making changes now, it just makes it exponentially easier later on. All these little things that I’m avoiding right now such as cooking, laundry, driving, etc, will come back to bite me in the ass as an adult. If I instill all these essential skills into myself now, I will be ready for the future.

At the same time, becoming more self sufficient also indirectly accomplishes another one of my goals: become a better person.

I imagine that having the confidence that you can take care of yourself is immensely helpful. Having the discipline and maturity to do everything by yourself, without parental assistance must be very liberating. 

At the same time, I free up my mom’s time, so she can spend more time doing what she loves, because God knows I suck up way too much of her time. And it’s time to change that. She deserves better.

Average Of Ninety

Oh, the ever elusive average of ninety. Many say it is the difference between life and death if you reside with an Asian family. Unfortunately, it’s true. I just got my midterms back, and in all honesty I am extremely disappointed with myself. Fortunately, the situation is still salvageable.

My average of the time was 87.75. For my standards, this was pathetic. However, considering that those were my midterms, I still have a long way before my final marks come back for semester one. Even if my average is still below 90 by the end of the first semester I will still have the second semester to desperately raise it. 

Now some people who are reading this might object to this goal. Some say that you should not focus on marks, but rather, experience. This is true. The fastest way you can get ready for the “real world” or “actual work” is to do that work. I believe they call this internship, apprenticeship or something along the sort. 

What I am looking for in getting the 90 average is not the marks themselves. The marks are irrelevant. However, I want to excel in everything I do. By making excellence my norm for anything, this carries over into my working life. The earlier I can make this into a habit, the easier it will be later on in life. It’s the habits and work ethic that you cultivate, not the marks.

I am not chasing after numbers, I am chasing after excellence. 

Get A Girlfriend

I just came out of my first “official” relationship barely a week ago. I’ll be completely honest and say I have next to no experience in relationships with the opposite gender. I am naturally confident in general, but for I degrade into a complete mess when things I care about are actually on stake. Which is also one of the reasons why we broke up.

Now, I may not have much life experience, but from what little I do I’d like think that I learn fast. In all fairness however, I’ve had bowel movements longer than my first relationship, so this learned information can be inaccurate at times, if not completely wrong, but here’s what I gleaned.

1) Girls should not be a priority in your life, rather they are there to enhance it.

The girl should never be your number one priority in your life. You should always have a hobby, a passion, a dream; This is what drives you forward. Now I should probably clear up the phrasing. I’m not saying you shouldn’t value the girl or treat her right. What I am saying however is that you should not spend all your time chasing her around. You are a man, act like one. Do not treat your girlfriend like the end all solution. Simply having a girlfriend is not what should make you happy; get everything in your life sorted out, become a better person and the women will naturally follow.

2) Communication is what starts the relationship, communication can also be what ends it.

If one or both of the people in the relationship are boxing all their problems and emotions away, the relationship simply cannot work. Eventually the problems are going to build up, and the whole house of cards come tumbling down. Communication is absolutely imperative in relationship from both sides.

3) As sappy as it sounds, just be yourself.

Here’s where it can get a bit complicated. An interesting question is, what exactly is “yourself”? I will save this for another post, because it’s quite lengthy. 

Gain Thirteen Pounds

At five foot eleven, I tower over the majority of the Asians I know. I’m not even done growing yet! By no means am I unfit, in fact, I would actually say I’m above average in terms of fitness. I run long distance (which some people say is an excuse for being skinny - it shouldn’t be), and I took Tae-Kwon-Do for four years, so I know how to throw and take hits.

The problem lies in my skinniness. I weight only 130 pounds which basically means I’m a stick for my size. I am in grade ten right now, so getting a head start in building muscle mass right now will do me wonders. I’ve always mulled over the idea in the past, but I never put it into actions for periods of long enough time to actually see visible effects. I should also mention that my goal is not to simply gain thirteen pounds of anything, but more specifically muscle! That’s kind of important.

So how much time do I have to gain thirteen pounds? I want to accomplish this before Summer 2012. I don’t even know if it’s possible to build that much muscle mass in such a short of period of time, but I see no harm in trying.

At the same time, this will be a substitute for Tae-Kwon-Do. I’d like to believe that Tae-Kwon-Do really changed my life. I used to spend at least twelve hours every week on it. It instilled in me a calm sense of discipline, and taught me to control my emotions. Unfortunately, I quit a while ago and to this day it is actually one of my greatest regrets. The life lessons I learned from Tae-Kwon-Do were invaluable, but I can feel myself slowly losing grip of that reality. I’ve been falling back into my naturally lazy state after stopping Tae-Kwon-Do for a while now. Hopefully, I can bring back my old frame of mind.

Goals.

By the start of July 2012, I’d like to say I’ve accomplished all of these goals. Hopefully they’re all realistic, but I suppose they may change as I change.

1. Gain 13 pounds.

2. Get a girlfriend

3. End the year with at least a 90 average.

4. Get a part time job.

5. Become more self sufficient.

          a) Cook my own damn food

          b) Do my own damn laundry from now on

          c) Get to school by my damn self

          d) Motivate my lazy ass

6. Join more extracurricular activities.

7. Read more into psychology and business.

          a) Business for later on in life

          b) Psychology as a passion

8. Become a better person.

          a) More confident

          b) More controlled

          c) Happier

9. Accomplish everything on this list.

Let’s kick this off.

In the past, I never seemed to realize that Tumblr had any possible usages. Recently, it seemed like all the people I talked to just spent all day reblogging miscellaneous junk all over their Tumblr. Then I realized, “Hey, Tumblr is a blogging platform, so why don’t I blog?”.

I warn you ahead of time though, to anybody that trawls the internet deep enough to find my Tumblr, this is a personal journal. I will not be reblogging everything that I find “cool” looking or “awesome”. I may post unoriginal content, but there will be a meaning behind it.

So some may be wondering, what is the purpose of creating an online journal? 

1. It can be accessed from anywhere with an internet connection.

And that’s about it.

On this blog I will talk about my goals, dreams, aspirations, etc. Also I’m going to rant. And share my opinions (AKA MORE RANTING). If anybody reads this however, I do not claim to be an expert in anything I write rants on. Another purpose of this is that I can look back to what I wrote now, and hopefully have a laugh over how stupid/naive I was.

I find that at every single stage of my life, I always look back and laugh at what I did, because every single new stage I reached I thought that was it. Then I always turned out to be wrong, and I always will be wrong. Sometimes, I’d like to think that I’m slightly less wrong than I was before.